Friday, 28 Feb 2014…

 

And…

 

My life sucks, I feel so down… the more I tell myself, it’s a bad day, not a bad life, the more I wane break down, sit in a corner and cry!

OMG… where do I begin?

So I have # best friends – they all play different roles in my life

1 – the ultimate support, always there for me besties – She is the one that stays far away in Cape town, we have been friends since high school, we chat every day, and when I get a chance to see her I never feel like she was gone!

2 – my go to friend – she stays in jhb just in the south, she is my everything… the one I get on to the phone to first when I need to rant or rave, when im in trouble I can always call on her no matter what the time or the situation

3 – I’m not sure where this friend places or if she is a friend, let alone a best friend. We do spend a lot of time in each other’s company, and we have a Thursday withstanding dinner date, but sometimes I feel like, take our few drinks away, and I don’t feel like we would be that great friends.

 

Saying that, from yesterday afternoon, I have felt terrible… I don’t know if its flu or what, but I feel like death, post nasal drip, blocked ears, constant headache… so I never drank at my dinner date last night – made me feel like things were awkward, we left early

 

I just feel like, I’m lost?!

 

I know I have a goal that I’m starting on Monday, but further, I don’t know what I want in life or where I am going, this living month to month, no savings, no surety id really getting to me today.

 

I feel lost – I want my mommy *sadface*

Anyway, I’ll go into the week end nursing my cold, relaxing, doing basic food prep and just trying to go with it ;-)

 

My husband will be fixing his bike…

 

Life is boring today!

 

Chat soon

x0x0